Tex is in Houston at the Zoo with Grandma and Grandpa. I dropped him off yesterday around 3 and won't see him again until Saturday noonish. I am missing him so much. I thought as he got older, it would be easier to be away from him. And it is in a sense; that he can voice his needs sets me at ease. But I was surprised to find myself feeling like something was missing. More than that, I felt a little pain in my heart, and still feel it today. He's my firstborn. My boy. My love. I can't wait to hear his sweet voice again.

I spent the afternoon with Nadia and that helped to keep my mind off missing Tex. We did a little naughtya shopping :) and played with Cecilia.

I love love love Nadia. I am so proud of her. I am so happy in her company. I wish I could give her anything she ever wanted. I wish I could take her on a vacation. I wish I could take her on a shopping spree! I wish I could take her to fancy restaurants and eat good food. I wish I could give her everything, because, like it is with my kids, seeing her happy makes my heart swell!

Cecilia is sleeping and the house is quiet. I should try to catch a nap too. That is a funny phrase. Like fishing. Catch a fish. Catch a nap. But for me, it is like that, because it may or may not happen. Everything has to be just right. Shut up and sleep.